More and more lately I’ve felt like I’ve been fighting for my dream alone. More and more it seems like nobody believes in me, that I can succeed. I’ll read things about people who talk about how there were always those people who told them, “I believe in you.” All I get is the “you can accomplish anything you want to but you should have a backup plan if it doesn’t work out.” Except it always sounds like they’re saying “when it doesn’t work out.” And with my complete lack of any kind of self-confidence, every day is an exhausting battle of yes, I can do it and forget it, I’ll never be anything. I sometimes wonder what I could do if even one person did tell me “I believe in you.” I get that an acting career isn’t easy to get into, especially for someone like me, and I get that people are being practical when they tell me to have a backup plan. I just need that one person who’ll pretty much say, “Screw them. You can do it, I know you can. I believe in you.”
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Two years later yesterday, I went back to the museum only to discover that they no longer had it and moreover, the lady behind the counter had never even heard of it. But she was able to direct me to the public library, where the moment I mentioned that I was looking for a book titled Abandon, the librarian knew exactly what book I was looking for and promptly found it for me and gave it to me to read. Between around 4:30 pm till 10:30 that night, I devoured that book.
Friday, July 6, 2012
So I haven't particularly inspired to write recently even though there are a number of things I want to blog about. Serious lack of motivation. But I was randomly browsing the internet and saw this and thought it was hilarious because so much of it is true. So I hope you enjoy this non-serious blog!