Believe in Me

More and more lately I’ve felt like I’ve been fighting for my dream alone.  More and more it seems like nobody believes in me, that I can succeed.  I’ll read things about people who talk about how there were always those people who told them, “I believe in you.”  All I get is the “you can accomplish anything you want to but you should have a backup plan if it doesn’t work out.”  Except it always sounds like they’re saying “when it doesn’t work out.”  And with my complete lack of any kind of self-confidence, every day is an exhausting battle of yes, I can do it and forget it, I’ll never be anything.  I sometimes wonder what I could do if even one person did tell me “I believe in you.”  I get that an acting career isn’t easy to get into, especially for someone like me, and I get that people are being practical when they tell me to have a backup plan.  I just need that one person who’ll pretty much say, “Screw them.  You can do it, I know you can.  I believe in you.”

Abandon

For the past couple of years my family has been coming to Silverton, CO for vacation.  It is honestly my favorite place on earth and one of my dreams is to be able to build or buy a house out here.  Its one of our favorite vacation spots and we enjoy hiking, four-wheeling, exploring the town, etc.  About two years ago we decided to tour the old jail which was really neat as it had far more than just the old jail.  At the end of the tour there was a gift shop that you could check out.  We ended up looking around for a bit and me being me, I zeroed in on the books.  The one that really caught my interest was titled Abandon.  Upon picking it up I found that it was fiction which really caught my interest.  The brief summary which revealed a story of a mining town where every one of its inhabitants disappeared on Christmas Day 1893 leaving behind all of their belongings, food on the table, etc. fascinated me especially as it went on to describe the group of people who went up to try unravel what happened on that fateful day in 2009.  As I began reading it I was immediately drawn in.  Naturally just as things started to get really interesting, my parents decided it was time to go and since I didn't have enough money to purchase the book, I had to leave it behind.

Two years later yesterday, I went back to the museum only to discover that they no longer had it and moreover, the lady behind the counter had never even heard of it.  But she was able to direct me to the public library, where the moment I mentioned that I was looking for a book titled Abandon, the librarian knew exactly what book I was looking for and promptly found it for me and gave it to me to read.  Between around 4:30 pm till 10:30 that night, I devoured that book.

Things We Learn From Movies

So I haven't particularly inspired to write recently even though there are a number of things I want to blog about.  Serious lack of motivation.  But I was randomly browsing the internet and saw this and thought it was hilarious because so much of it is true.  So I hope you enjoy this non-serious blog!